To those of you who never gave up on me…. Endless calls, texts, emails, snail mail, surprise packages and contacting
Amber to check I was still kickin’ and able to wipe my own drool… Thank you so
much! Even though I couldn’t reply, I
sent my appreciation and love out to you as hard as I could!
I love you guys!
My heart is full of love and gratitude for having such amazing people in
my life! Hope to be telling you
personally at some point soon.
I am doing much better now. Physically, I’ve never felt better in my life,
I’m off all meds except thyroid replacement, have cut that dose in half and
hope to be in complete remission by this time next year. I went back to the gym July 19th, and
already I’m stronger with greater flexibility.
Also, my old sparring partner BC (remember my broken ankle, leg reap
gone wrong; my dumb-ass fault) is training me from a variety of disciplines. He kicks my ass around the mat once a week. I still have a few issues I’m working on but
things are looking up.
I’m working hard to regain some confidence. Don’t laugh, I was a big fat (literally) wuss
for a while there. I’ve been going to
the range again and after five years off can still shoot (my) fist size
groupings with my Glock19. With the
Mossberg I can consistently blow away the targets' solar plexus across to the right
shoulder.... but practice is really so more fun than I remembered!
Quick caveat here: I actively avoid the ‘reformed’… you
know the people who quit smoking/drinking/find religion, Tony Robins or Amway and feel that burning
desire to share their joy and tell everyone? Ugh, nothing worse, right? Yeah, I'm kind of one of them now.
To regain my health I researched and adjusted everything I put into and onto my body. It was drastic but worth it to regain my health. Consequently, I’m a fucking freak but have no desire to change! I have knowledge that I can’t UN-know but
I’m trying hard to want to shut the hell up about it. Don’t get me wrong…I’m happy and even feel a
tiny bit superior but I am still working on all of it.
If you’re still here, thanks for reading. I hope to find my ‘voice’ again and the
pleasure I used to find in writing, because as you can imagine….. I’ve got five
years of words built up. There will
most certainly be more in depth postings about all this but for now I’m going
to post whatever occurs to me and hope
it doesn’t read like the ramblings of some crazy old chick trying sort out her
own shit.
Peace Out.
Great to see your back into it. We'll always be here waiting. Love from Oz.
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